back....
it has been so long...so much have been happening...and i dont know what to do anymore...seems like im not ready for getting into a serious relationship yet...im just too tired...but anyway...seems like ive got myself into some mess by going with Hamish...hes a nice guy...i like him...but seriously, where are all those strong feelings i once had to Mike....i wanna have those once more with Hamish...but its impossible no matter what i tried...and now i feel like im being unfair to Hamish with these empty feelings....i know hes going out with me just becos i look good...i dont know...im not even sure whether i should give him whatever he asks for or not?? i dont want to sleep with him anytime soon...i dont know...why must relationship be so hard...oh well..i dont really care...i will just have to wait and see how things go...lol...oh well.....
