well...little look back...
I have been so so so so busy the last 2 months...stupid uni....what do they expect out of us?? genius or sth....im trying my best to keep up and get the best marks as i could....but there are still some resentment towards studying in my heart....just wanna die...
I'm scared cos lately I have tried to picture me as an all grown-up successful woman both in life and in her career...but i couldnt....im wondering if im gonna die b4 i can repay my debts for my parents...i dont mind dying...as i know once we close our eyes...theres nothing else to bother about (like money, fashion, foods, ciggies, boyfriend,...)
Wouldnt it be nicer if we all turn back in time and lead such an exotic life....be with the nature....and be ourselves...no more material needs....i know its just my dream....no way i can ever have that kind of life...all i want now is to go back and be with my family...but then again no matter where i go, conflicts exist...no one can understand me just like theres no way i can understand anyone here....
Hell!!! Soul Society.....wonder if they actually exist....i hope not...my biggest wish in life is that when the time comes for me to die, my eyes would be close forever...and not to be open again....i dont want to be awaken...dont wanna hear...and dont wanna care...
well i bet even Jesus Chris and buddha abandon us - foolish human beings....
I'm scared cos lately I have tried to picture me as an all grown-up successful woman both in life and in her career...but i couldnt....im wondering if im gonna die b4 i can repay my debts for my parents...i dont mind dying...as i know once we close our eyes...theres nothing else to bother about (like money, fashion, foods, ciggies, boyfriend,...)
Wouldnt it be nicer if we all turn back in time and lead such an exotic life....be with the nature....and be ourselves...no more material needs....i know its just my dream....no way i can ever have that kind of life...all i want now is to go back and be with my family...but then again no matter where i go, conflicts exist...no one can understand me just like theres no way i can understand anyone here....
Hell!!! Soul Society.....wonder if they actually exist....i hope not...my biggest wish in life is that when the time comes for me to die, my eyes would be close forever...and not to be open again....i dont want to be awaken...dont wanna hear...and dont wanna care...
well i bet even Jesus Chris and buddha abandon us - foolish human beings....
